Temporary Hiatus

I am only a few days into this internship, but it feels like I am much further along. Because I'm taking in so much new information, I think it makes sense for me to feel this way. But what does not make sense to me is the fact that I am having trouble processing it. I'm having trouble being present here. I'm very distracted by the most minor parts of Djibouti: weird-faced cats outside our door, the bumps in the dirt roads we walk, the taste of the sweat that is constantly pouring down my face, the guard who merely opens and closes the gate for us when we drive to Rachel and Tom's house. And I find myself spending a great deal of time analyzing and trying to "figure out" the American people I'm working with here. I think some of this is a result of jet-lag which should fade out in a few days, but I think it is more than that, too. My dream world has been full of the things I avoid thinking about while I'm awake, and when jet-lag wakes me up at 3am, I'm left to deal with these daunting thoughts which, in turn, force me to withdraw from the present reality and enter into my isolated inner world. I find all of this so frustrating. If I need to deal with something, then I pray that I have opportunity to isolate it and deal with it. There is just too much for me to organize and analyze myself.

With all that said, I have decided to stop updating for a little while. Probably not more than a week, but I need some time without the internal pressure to keep up with this blog. Please pray.